Height

5'9" but I say 5'10", I'm

Ethnicity

White and a

Position

Top but bad at it, maybe that's why I've been

Relationship Status

Single since J—during our last conversation we had cold beers wet on our hands & he looked at me like I'd thrown mine on the ground, with his caramel eyes all delicious and concerned.

Looking for

Chat, Friends, Right Now, somebody beautiful to listen to my heartbeat & I'll pretend like I'm dominant enough to kill a man even though I'm really a softie. I just want you to feel comfortable as you take me into your throat like a magician with their rainbow ribbon in reverse I'll stroke your hair & scratch your scalp & think about how if I saw you on the street I would think: there's a beautiful person, and it would bring tears to my eyes, the knowledge that I could never have you.

HIV Status

Negative, I've been on PrEP since the day I was born, that is, since the day I lost my virginity, because it shattered me, how it shatters everybody, how we shatter twice, at birth and at the first union, but it didn't kill me & I take that for granted every day. I'm not vain enough to think it was all for me, but I'm thankful, I want to atone, I want to remember

Last Tested

November 2022 at SF City Clinic. As they were drawing my blood I almost passed out & they were out of apple juice so the nurse gave me grapes from her sack lunch & I focused on not throwing up as I split the skins with my molars. Teeth are dead weight but I swear I could feel their sweet nectar coating my canines.

Meet at

Your Place, Coffee Shop, My Place is beautiful, or so I hope, I've spent so much time and money on it since J. I have fancy candles & Aesop products, I wash my sheets regularly & I just need a boy who loves me for me, but first they need to think I'm hygienic & smooth & clean & then I can start fucking everything up again.