SOMETIMES WHEN ON FIRE
sometimes when on fire i say,
i say, "i am going to stop eating pennies for dinner."
what if you had a yellow orb of light for a head.
when i am on fire i don't feel obligated
YELLOW CIRCLES OF LIGHT
when it's hot my stomach hurts and i miss henry. henry is a person i have never met. henry is like a coke bottle in the parade of auschwitz. everywhere i turn there is an animal in a cage.
when i have a problem i buy a red heart purse and spit into it until it is full. then i throw the purse on the subway tracks. the heart gets run over and i feel my chest inflate. sometimes people are bad. but maybe there is a kind of badness that is like the bacteria that causes stomach ulcers. this happened to my grandmother.
i like yellow circles of light and the shadows they make. when i am alone i miss henry and my chest sinks down through the couch. i find myself chewing on a coke bottle and then i think, "remember how you are not supposed to be doing this." i can feel the glass in my chest. i don't want to do the dishes if henry isn't here. when i go home there is always a small animal waiting for me in the corner.
"sometimes when on fire" started from earlier lines that are part of nothing now: sometimes when on fire i think i have water, i have water, i have water. i have to think this. i am the only person in the world.
"yellow circles of light" is about a real person that i have never met, and so is, in a sense, imaginary. his name isn't henry and he isn't [this person].