Emails from Dead People
All last night I kept getting emails from people I thought were dead. Some of them from people who had just fallen by the wayside, but some of them were from people whose funerals I'd been to.
>hey kfan it's diego what is
was the first one. I emailed him back, saying "What the hell are you telling me here? You got high and fell into the Connecticut River one night 5 years ago, and now you're somewhere emailing me?"
>I don't know
In death, as in life, Diego didn't know shit. I tried to see if we could at least instant message to get some kind of real conversation going, but he said that wasn't going to happen.
Sometimes when it's late at night and I'm alone, just sitting at the computer, I start worrying about every little thing in the house. Did I leave the stove on. Where is that dripping sound coming from. I work from home, and all day long, nothing bothers me. There's kids outside, there's cars going by. Then at night, I don't know what happens. It's like the quiet changes something inside me, I get lonely. I guess I don't know what I'm talking about.
After I'd been emailing with Diego for an hour or so I got an email from Jere. Jere had actually been on the dock with Diego that night he drowned. Jere dove in right after him, kept on diving for a half hour, but it wasn't until the next morning that the cops finally dragged Diego's body out. Jere died a few years later, of a heroin overdose. It was the same thing with him, he shows up in my inbox like he's never been gone. Jesus, I said to Jere. I'm also emailing with Diego right now.
>yeah no shit
was his response. I couldn't figure out if he meant he was surprised too, or like "Of course, what the fuck else would Diego be doing."
I was telling Diego something about how every night I worry that maybe there are people in my basement. I get scared that there could be people down there, and I wouldn't even know it. I picture them crawling up through the floor. Not dead though, alive, but tunneling up through the ground. Not to get to me, but to get near me, or something. He said
>yeah it's like